Growing up I was always active: I played soccer for 13 or 14 years, played different sports in school, was in marching band (not too athletic, but MAN you sweat a lot), etc. I was able to eat whatever I wanted and still maintained a decent figure. However, once I stopped playing sports, got married, then had kiddos, well.... let's just say I've looked better. Year after year I would tell myself I was going to take better care of myself, diet, exercise, etc. Sometimes it would last a few days, but usually never was more than the words that came out of my mouth.
For once, I am actually DOING IT! I am doing what I said I would do and I'm keeping to it. Now, don't get me wrong - I'm not perfect. (The girls I had lunch with today can sure testify to that.) But I'm changing and not just dieting but making a lifestyle change. I'm committing to something and sticking with it! Slowly but surely, I'm getting back in shape and the pounds (even more slowly) are starting to come off.
Over the past few years, I've also felt compelled to do other things outside of myself, such as volunteer at a hospital or sponsor a child, etc. Again, it's never been more than a thought that quickly vanishes. Lately, I've been feeling very burdened to do something and I'm not exactly sure about what.
To backtrack a little, we have some friends that are leaving in a couple years to do missionary work in Ethiopia. When they first told us, I thought they were crazy - who in their right mind would leave America to go to a third world country? But mostly, how did they know that's what God wanted them to do? For probably the first time in my life, I understand how they knew. I think God is trying to show me the object of this burden I'm feeling and I'm trying to listen. I feel that He is showing me things little by little so that soon I will see the "big picture." Part of me thinks it has something to do with baking and children (but not baking children - ha!), but I'm not 100% certain. Please pray that I listen to what God is trying to tell me and that I allow Him to use me to His glory, even if it means going out of my comfort bubble. Until next time....